I just realized, who the fuck do I think I am? yeah im having a shitty situation but 1) its my own damn fault 2) I need to grow up and accept it (this is hard) and 3) there are people like zimmerman who a lot of people hate currently and I bet HE feels lonely….maybe not, but that would be the appropiate human response. everyone knows his bizness and has some opinion on him….so who the fuck am I to think I have it bad, i’m at fucking vcu…bum fuck no where relative to the world. and these people who I get upset over, won’t even matter in a year, because i’m doing big things—they’re not. I just need to keep reminding myself that, it’s really hard. and I need to realize self-worth for I have none judging from the people I let into my personal bubble…..it’s gonna be a “really?!” moment in my life

I became someone that I never thought I’d be. I’m disgusted with myself, but I have no one to share everything with. I can’t even admit to myself, so how can I even explain to someone else. The thing is, what I’ve become is somewhat of a norm in society. Everyone I hated is what I am now. A fateful December changed everything. I keep blaming others for my own faults. I know it’s my fault, but I will sometimes think “if only…” I am so upset, and it all started because I looked at jes’s profile and remembered she fucked over bennette. 

(Source: justiceballah)